I have carried pain like invisible stones
Sometimes aware of its existence
Often experienced as a referred aching
A heaviness felt on a soul level
The weight of a thousand injustices
An accumulation of my perceived failures
Crumbled dreams piled up like debris
Harbored still because I have never learned
How to release a pain so profoundly deep.
Dear soul, I never asked to carry this
And yet I am responsible to let go
Stepping into the role of my own rescuer
A process both unfair and necessary
On this long and arduous road.
I did not realize my own readiness
Until I began to open my heart to relief
Learning to hold pain and healing together
One capable of overpowering the other
And I have habitually chased out peace
Only now accepting that I deserve
The alleviation of pain released.