Meaning

I am an avid seeker of meaning

Not in the happenstance of sudden miracles

Not in the emotional whirlwind of wishful thinking

But in real, tangible elements that make up our purpose,

In the light that still shines in shadowy places

In the connections between each chapter of life

When we begin to understand the reasons for our pain

As well our reasons to deserve the good that befalls us.

I think I will be searching forever for meaning,

Because it sustains my skeptical soul

Gives layered depth to my experiences

Fills my weathered heart with gratitude

For learning, for healing, for growth.