I am an avid seeker of meaning
Not in the happenstance of sudden miracles
Not in the emotional whirlwind of wishful thinking
But in real, tangible elements that make up our purpose,
In the light that still shines in shadowy places
In the connections between each chapter of life
When we begin to understand the reasons for our pain
As well our reasons to deserve the good that befalls us.
I think I will be searching forever for meaning,
Because it sustains my skeptical soul
Gives layered depth to my experiences
Fills my weathered heart with gratitude
For learning, for healing, for growth.