She built a fortress around herself Very few were permitted inside Unless they agreed to patiently wait For her heartache and fears to subside. Aware that others deemed her as guarded, She hid her soul beneath ice and steel Knowing the ones that deserved her trust Would gave her time and space to heal.
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Beyond the Bend
No, we may not see far beyond the bend, But the unknown will dissipate as we walk Fog clearing slowly with each apprehensive step Uncertain, but not out of our depth. For isn’t it true that the best decisions Were made without the luxury of guarantees? And we are all just as close to aContinue reading “Beyond the Bend”
When the Stars Fell
The first time the stars fell, I was horrified As if the Earth itself had shifted on its tilted axis Off kilter and haphazard with no end in sight Where life before trauma would never return And it did not. The second, third, tenth, twentieth time the stars fell, Fear retreated into numbness and normalcyContinue reading “When the Stars Fell”
Now
Now is made up of a million past choices Of words we said that opened hidden doors Of words left unspoken that indirectly closed them Of leaps into the dark with a miraculous landing Of tiny steps in broad daylight leading to free-falling. Not a soul among us would refuse an offer to go backContinue reading “Now”
Worthiness
Worthiness became an evasive mirage Unreachable as my authentic self So I tried to transform into a mirror Always reflecting back the good Knowing the detriment of showing truth. Worthiness was the illusion of being needed People-pleasing to keep degradation at bay Giving too much became my forcefield To absorb the impact of disrupting peace.Continue reading “Worthiness”
Heart Scars
Maybe my heart will always bear scars And only as time passes the stinging becomes bearable Than when it was still so close, so unspeakable. Now there are words forming to describe the depths Instead of wordless, directionless whirlpools in the dark. There are tiny embers glowing to illuminate despair Not erasing or diminishing, butContinue reading “Heart Scars”
Past and Present
When I step back into the past, I step back into a fear that paralyzed The never-ending search for one drop of peace As my confused mind believed each condemning word Felt the loneliness produced in the presence of abuse Where there was no concept of equivalence No healing balm for the sharp sting OfContinue reading “Past and Present”
Love Heals
Love heals It awakens our understanding Brings us back to our authenticity Reminds us of our treasured worth As it mends our wounds with kindness Until our hearts rejuvenate. Love is not painful It is not an imbalance of power An impulsive anger receptacle A vulnerable heart against a brick wall Unkind words and projectedContinue reading “Love Heals”
Alleviation
I have carried pain like invisible stones Sometimes aware of its existence Often experienced as a referred aching A heaviness felt on a soul level The weight of a thousand injustices An accumulation of my perceived failures Crumbled dreams piled up like debris Harbored still because I have never learned How to release a painContinue reading “Alleviation”
Light Will Find Us Again
When the cold begins to settle into our hearts We must cling to those days of brightness and joy When our shoulders felt lighter, our vision focused Remembering moments of transcendent beauty Like small pockets of relief along a strenuous climb. When there is no certainty of what will be, We look for anchors toContinue reading “Light Will Find Us Again”
The Therapy of Words 