Reawakening

Reawakening is not a soft process It is the gasp of clarity The heaviness of acceptance The tears of letting go Of life as we once knew. Reawakening is trying again The risk of vulnerability The reliving of old conditioning As we slowly begin to believe This time is different, the past is gone. ReawakeningContinue reading “Reawakening”

Fortress

She built a fortress around herself Very few were permitted inside Unless they agreed to patiently wait For her heartache and fears to subside. Aware that others deemed her as guarded, She hid her soul beneath ice and steel Knowing the ones that deserved her trust Would gave her time and space to heal.

Today

Today was never promised, but here we are A miracle often overlooked by the mundane The gift of breathing with numbered breaths The luxury of repeating again and again the same. How easily we forget the wonder of sunrises When we believe we have a wealth of days to come How beautiful the road weContinue reading “Today”

Anchor

Sometimes when I find myself floating Drifting aimlessly in rumination and fear You are the anchor that guides me home When I cannot find my landing place. Eventually I would have found a destination The way I always have, the way I always will But your presence is like a peaceful song Singing me toContinue reading “Anchor”

Love Is Written in Chapters

Love is written in chapters Each one beginning with “I met someone,” With “forever” doodled hopefully in the margins. Some chapters fill only a few pages Compared to others still left unfinished And while no two are exactly alike, They represent for us growth, change, awareness Teaching us what heals us and what harms usContinue reading “Love Is Written in Chapters”

When the Stars Fell

The first time the stars fell, I was horrified As if the Earth itself had shifted on its tilted axis Off kilter and haphazard with no end in sight Where life before trauma would never return And it did not. The second, third, tenth, twentieth time the stars fell, Fear retreated into numbness and normalcyContinue reading “When the Stars Fell”

The Challenge of Worthiness

Why is it such a challenge To offer ourselves the same kindness we give to others? Showing unwavering care for all human beings While simultaneously torturing ourselves With degrading words and punitive thoughts. Injustices by others we automatically turn inward Into unending attacks against our own character Willingly taking the blame while blameless The wayContinue reading “The Challenge of Worthiness”

Worthiness

Worthiness became an evasive mirage Unreachable as my authentic self So I tried to transform into a mirror Always reflecting back the good Knowing the detriment of showing truth. Worthiness was the illusion of being needed People-pleasing to keep degradation at bay Giving too much became my forcefield To absorb the impact of disrupting peace.Continue reading “Worthiness”

Heart Scars

Maybe my heart will always bear scars And only as time passes the stinging becomes bearable Than when it was still so close, so unspeakable. Now there are words forming to describe the depths Instead of wordless, directionless whirlpools in the dark. There are tiny embers glowing to illuminate despair Not erasing or diminishing, butContinue reading “Heart Scars”