Now

Now is made up of a million past choices Of words we said that opened hidden doors Of words left unspoken that indirectly closed them Of leaps into the dark with a miraculous landing Of tiny steps in broad daylight leading to free-falling. Not a soul among us would refuse an offer to go backContinue reading “Now”

Worthiness

Worthiness became an evasive mirage Unreachable as my authentic self So I tried to transform into a mirror Always reflecting back the good Knowing the detriment of showing truth. Worthiness was the illusion of being needed People-pleasing to keep degradation at bay Giving too much became my forcefield To absorb the impact of disrupting peace.Continue reading “Worthiness”

Accompanying Light

There has always been an accompanying light Like a small, glowing lantern floating along While the dark took me prisoner again and again Determined that I was meant to struggle alone. At first, I thought it was only mocking Watching as I climbed and fell and climbed again But I learned to trust in theContinue reading “Accompanying Light”

Heart Scars

Maybe my heart will always bear scars And only as time passes the stinging becomes bearable Than when it was still so close, so unspeakable. Now there are words forming to describe the depths Instead of wordless, directionless whirlpools in the dark. There are tiny embers glowing to illuminate despair Not erasing or diminishing, butContinue reading “Heart Scars”

Inside Each of Us

Inside each of us Lives a younger, fearful version of ourselves Still waiting for the words we never heard Still longing for the approval we never received Still mourning the loss of healthy attachment Still believing the cause is our fundamental existence. Within each of us Lives a wisened, knowing version of ourselves Saying softlyContinue reading “Inside Each of Us”

Let the Next Steps Forward Be Kind

Let the next steps forward be kind A peaceful walk on a blank canvas of snow With sunlight softening the edges of despair Dispelling the illusions and confusions So that only truth awaits. Let this next walk of life be calm The old ways of survival are no longer feasible To our evolving minds, ourContinue reading “Let the Next Steps Forward Be Kind”

At the Door of the New Year

This door used to be a mirage Floating mockingly out on a hazy horizon Universes out of reach, But I fought my way out of the stagnancy Escaped the impossible chains Vulnerable and rattled but still standing Setting aside my armor for rejuvination. Years have blended into chapters Walls have broken down into debris TearsContinue reading “At the Door of the New Year”

Trying

I am trying, oh I am trying, To hold both the bitter and the sweet Familiarizing my heart to nostalgic pulls Learning to honor my instinct to retreat. I am accepting with an open heart, Truths that are clear and those yet untold Bending softly to a future still foggy ahead Trusting more in whatContinue reading “Trying”

Falling Snow

Snow is falling softly Quieting the commotion of busy streets Teaching by example the necessity For moments of complete stillness When we finally turn our focus inward Taking stock of our own emotional reserves Brave enough to recognize, at last, What we must do to begin to heal the aching Reaching when our hearts areContinue reading “Falling Snow”

Past and Present

When I step back into the past, I step back into a fear that paralyzed The never-ending search for one drop of peace As my confused mind believed each condemning word Felt the loneliness produced in the presence of abuse Where there was no concept of equivalence No healing balm for the sharp sting OfContinue reading “Past and Present”